I was in the admin building today in UBD conducting some interviews. (Oh yes by the way, I resigned from my previous tourism job for a temporary post in Institute of Medicine, UBD – will talk more on this later) As I was walking out of the International Office, there was someone busily pasting pieces of papers on the wall, at Examinations. Curious, I went over like the true busy body you know I am and there it was. My degree classification staring right back at me like a child. And truly it is my baby. Something I nurtured and took care of for 4 years.
Oh I didn’t get something bombastic like First Class Honours of course, I got a predictable Lower Second Class Honours instead, which I am very happy about. But something tells me I should not be happy, I should be jubilant! Yet I’m not. I shrug off every congratulatory hug and phrase with a polite thank you and sometimes maybe a joke or two. But truth is I feel a sense of dread, eating me from the back of my mind.
And I know exactly why. It’s the uncertainty in me despite the certainty of what’s waiting for me when I finally graduate. It grabs me and pulls me into its clutches like a doomed rodent. I don’t regret the last 4 years, no, but I am sorry I didn’t have the same vision I had during my first year. I was ready then than I am now for what’s waiting in the real world.
Here’s an apology. I’m sorry but I shouldn’t have promised. I’m sorry I am disillusioned and jaded. I’m sorry but I’m changing my mind.
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It’s OK, nothing is ever certain in life. 🙂
And CHINA! I want to go there too now. HAHAHA. 😉
Crap. Does that mean you won’t be here next Sunday? Will you?
inda! i’ll be in china till 4th of aug.
I’m still going to say congratulations…. again. Heehee.
Congrats, Mau! 🙂
Well, your certificate worths more than mine.
congratulations mau, it isn’t the end of the world with that classification… i have the same 🙂 i know how you feel though…. i was hoping for a higher second, but ended up with what i predicted… i was really let down…… but it’s true what they say.. it doesn’t even matter once you have a job. no one cares! so, chin up, go and celebrate in china! btw.. i saw this really horrible video fo what they do to cats and dogs.. it erally upset me cos i like dogs too 😦
Congrats and have fun in China! Lahh inda tia jadi Sunday ni.
what is it that makes an undergrad to get an upper second or lower second?like do you have to score a straight As and Bs to get a 2.1?
yeap, straight As and Bs, and maybe if youre lucky, one C, provided there’s no supplement exams or repeats. if there are a few Cs, as I did, and Bs and one As or something, then that would be a 2:2. u can only imagine how hard it is to get first class.
Hey.. nuthin certain beb… but lyf goes on. N jst prepare for better or worst… >.> hmm m talking n taking sumtyng right back to me eyhh… oh well… due to u myt not rely impress wat u hv right now… u DO hv something to enjoy… enjoy while ur on the ship beb… u hv d chances unlyk others =)
hi maurina. i came across this post from a random search on ubd.
“yeap, straight As and Bs, and maybe if youre lucky, one C, provided there’s no supplement exams or repeats. if there are a few Cs, as I did, and Bs and one As or something, then that would be a 2:2. u can only imagine how hard it is to get first class.” <- i dont really get it. did u mean breakdown grades or overall grades? if u dont mind, what grades did u get all semesters? thanks in advance!